Good bye and thanks

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who follows me, comments and so on and so forth. I just realized I really do not have time to blog and really i don't want to anymore. It used to be my way of venting when times are hard, but I realize it didn't really help. Getting out, meeting people has. I'm so much stronger now then I used to be. I will periodically update my art blog.

All the best :)

Oracle Friday's

So I've felt inspired to start my weekly card readings. I used to do celtic animal readings and angel card readings for friends on facebook.
So each Friday I will pull a card for the day, see what the message is.

Today's card: Crane (reversed)

Now reversed cards are not always negative, they do often have a slightly reversed meaning of what the card means upright, but each teaching of the card is aimed at assisting.

Cranes are the keeper of secrets, a hidden knowledge and are patrons of the written word. Crane reversed suggests that you should be watchful with who you confide in.Be careful not to betray any trust and use your intuition when sharing your knowledge. Also crane suggests that you do not make assumptions if you are not entirely sure in the information you are receiving, go to the source directly and keep an open mind.

A Day of pictures

One of my favorite things is to take my camera and just explore the area around me. I love finding special places.

Back to posting, because I don't care

Why waste time, emotion and energy anymore on the mundane. Why should I care about who is looking, who is not looking or what people think... It seems to pointless.



Life has taught me that time will consume your better days if you obsess about things that are just completely out of your control. I will proudly speak my mind, I have left to many things un said and I'm sick of regrets.

I want to let go of fear and just live. Be spontaneous from time to time, meet new people...oh god do I ever need to meet new people.
I'm so sick of the fair weather friends, those who bail on you when times get tough. Those who take advantage of your kindness, you can smell the reek of their fake-ness from a mile away.

I love friendships that are care free and low maintenance. If i want to hang out and watch a movie there is no pageantry that you have to put on. You can chat on the phone about completely random things, or not even talk for months and still have an effortless conversation.
I'm thankful to have one or two friends like this, but I wish there were more.

This seems to be a recurring theme in my life, make them and loose them. But this is what life is about, lessons learned and willingness to kepe trying.

Where I would rather be right now

I would turn back time, two years ago. I was healthy, looking good and radiant. Minus the relationship at the time, things were ok. Looking through old pictures brings back memories, also a yearning to go back here:

St. Thomas, in the U.S. Virgin Islands. Paradise......One of the best vacations of my life.I'm dying to go back. It is a goal to work towards

3 months, time flies

It was nearly been three months since I made three of the biggest, hardest and scariest decisions of my life. Now that things have settled a bit, reality is slowly creeping up on me...that alot has changed and perhaps I didn't really have the time to grieve some situations.



I internalize everything, I bottle up all my emotions inside and I stress. Some days I cracked, like my crying sessions on the way to work and once at work(that was embarrassing) and bursting into tears when I would hear a certain song.



I didn't have time to deal with what was going on, I was starting a new job (leaving one I loved, but I saw no future with at the time), buying a house(confusing, stressful and expensive...I thank the heavens that I had my parents to guide me) and moving out of a abusive and negative situation. I lived in a fog, I accepted unhappiness as my reality and the possibility of having anything better was lost to me.
Now that I have cut loose those ties that were holding me down, I still have to sometimes fight away feelings of not being worth while. I have to accept compliments, without questioning if there is any underlying motive. I have to see that like everyone I'm flawed and not to be discouraged, that healing takes time. To have patience for those who I feel have pulled away from me, let whatever is meant to happen in the hands of the universe.

Be open to whatever may come and be happy with all that I have been blessed with so far. I'm truly lucky and things will fall into place.

I used to stress about not being at the same place as my friends; I wasn't married, I wasn't pregnant nor did I have kids. I still don't have any of these things, but these elements do not define my self worth and I have to start realizing that the universe has a plan for me.
I do not need a man in my life to be a mother, I told myself that if I do not find the right guy I would do this regardless. There are amazing single mothers out there, many who do so by choice. I would be open and honest with my child, I would make sure there would be positive male influences in their lives.
Of course this would be hard, not only financially but also on me as an individual. But if you want something badly, if you work at it...things will work themselves out. Going to try and convince my mom to move in and be my permanent baby sitter lol.

Right now it is time to work on the current. Health, my home, friends, spirituality and work.

Blessed be

New blog

So I've started a new blog just for art work, check it out :)

http://melissasjart.blogspot.com/

A big thank you

I'm very thankful for the wonderful gathering; great food, gifts(spoiled) and fun times tonight.
Mandy, Liz, Monica, Jason, Bobby, Kelly and Taegh came for my house warming tonight. Mountains of food: home made cupcakes, veggies and dip, guacamole, quesadias etc. I'm stuffed and ready for bed now....Plus I just can't drink as much as I used to. Three or so glasses of wine and I'm done. I can't do the hangovers anymore.
Mandy and Liz got me some nice wine glasses and new board game. Kelly and Bobby got me a agate and quartz light catcher, Monica and Jason(TV stand, was using a microwave stand for the longest time.
Broke out the champagne and played some Dirty Minds(board game), had a blast. I can't think any more...it has been a long day.

Very Happy :)

Clean eating-Cleanse day

I decided to use all the fresh produce my mother brought me(the woman brings enough food to feed 20) and made a fresh bean salad.

Took a can of mixed beans(rinsed)

Fresh green beans and corn(steamed)

green onions(2 stalks)

one green pepper and one red pepper

Half a lime, salt( a tiny bit), pepper and garlic powder

Organic balsamic and olive oil.

This will be dinner, with some grilled chicken.

I haven't lost any weight yet, but I know things are moving in the right direction. Need to do some organizing today, then a walk and bike ride later on in the day.

The start

Attitude: Determined!

I have already wasted to much of this summer procrastinating. I know I will not see any progress until I do something about it and I know that I cannot rely on anyone else to motivate me.
Right now I'm unhappy with what I see. I have a stomach, weight on my thighs, arms and middle. Thankfully with my height, I just look overweight instead of obese. Plus I still have legs(yes I can say I have nice legs)...I know I can get back to leaner, meaner and toner me. I've used my weight as a security blanket for years, to cushion the blow of self belittling and abuse from others. i will continue to play the victim if i hide behind excuses, this is why I'm making a change.

I will track all my progress in my weight loss page...thanks for reading

Within Temptation - Utopia (feat. Chris Jones)

Screw you fat

So I'm finally taking life by the reins. I have been single for two months...I've done enough to destroy all the progress I have made for the last year. Next month I'm joining Booty Camp Fitness with a friend(Mandy).

It will be hard, I will want to cry...but this is the motivation I need. tomorrow is also day one of eating regime. I've been border line boozer for the last week, enjoying my last glass of Sangria for a while.
Lunches made at home, walks every night with the dog, biking and weights. Christine is also going to give me some fitness DVD's.

I can't wait. Fore more info on the boot camp:
http://www.bootycampfitness.com/

Day in pictures: exploring the area

Dechênes Ruins:19th century stone walls, arches, canal works, mill ruins, etc. on the islands at the Deschênes Rapids in Hull. You can see the city of Ottawa in the background

The Pup: exploring the river, a bit hesitant but extremely curious.



A piece of history: I love finding remnants of civilization that have been claimed by nature


Wild beauty: I adore wild flowers

Randomness Tuesday: Art dump

So here are some oldies but goodies. I'm hoping that once things calm down, I can start enjoying art again. Till then, enjoy.

Paintings and Sketches

Photography

YUCK, YUCK YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK i've failed as a home owner this week. Ottawa and Gatineau implemented the green and brown bin program for organic waste(fruits, vegetables, egg shells etc), we got the bin Wednesday. I've probably have 10 or so waste bags from the move, alot of food(from the various people staying here) and alot of recycling. Garbage is only picked up Monday, unfortunately I had a full bag of trash on Wednesday. I put the bag out on my patio and the absent minded idiot that I was, left it out all night. Of course the bag was attacked, I cleaned up the mess and put the trash in my big black bin. Fast forward to today, I open to bin to add some more trash..MAGGOTS!....slimy wormy larvae everywhere. There is no way I'm even going to attempt to pull the bags out, shake the bin and wash it.

Some people suggested salt, I emptied the entire box and nothing! then just squirm over it. I buy javex, then I think to myself...perhaps mixing the two is not a good idea. So tomorrow I will get some raid, spray the crap out of the bin and hope by Monday morning the garbage and the maggots will be gone.
If I could I would just take some lighter fluid and just set all the trash (bugs included) on fire.
Now I'm terrified about the green bins with this hot and humid weather. I'm also (since I'm already on a rant) done with the mutated spiders and moths who invade my front and back door each night. I get bombarded by the moths when I leave the house and when I enter. The spiders build massive webs, I wake up to sheets of dead moths.

Bring on the fall, I'm done with this summer

The game of dating

I can't explain why the whole concept of dating is actually so very unappealing, obviously just ending a 6 year relationship is one of the biggest contributing factors.....other then that I'm just not in the mind set to even care.
Yes I get lonely at times, I also envy other people who are in relationships, but at this current point in my life I just can't see myself opening up to another individual. Perhaps I'm apprehensive(justly so) and just slightly bitter. I'm not one to think all men are "pigs", but with my track record I have a hard time convincing myself that there are "decent " men out there. I also let my ego(such a pain in the ass) tell me that I'm not good enough at this current point, that all men have a certain body image in mind when meeting someone new and that I'm far to "fat" to enter the dating field.

Now if ever ready to jump back into the scene, where do you begin? Do you try the online dating, such as POF? spend some bucks and try E Harmony?
Perhaps rely on friends? unfortunately my friends don't know any single men my age...seriously that is a bit dis heartening. This is one of the things I feared when I got older, why I resent staying in dead end relationship for so long. It seems like the older I got, my confidence that I could find someone would dwindle. Of course many would say I'm over re-acting, perhaps the single life is not as bad as it seems and the right guy will come along.

I have to convince myself that there is some truth in that. If i learn to care about me, be happy with who I'm i will attract the man for me....yeah it sounds a like a bunch of BS right now, but everything takes time.
I have to dig down deep and find the person i used to be, dust that part of me off and tell them to get their act in gear. Get in shape for me, get out and meet new people.

This is the first step on a long uncertain road, can't wait to get started!

Green with envy?

Haha, I kid. But I do love green, can you tell?
Green(circa 1996) carpet is temporary for now, but I love the wall colour, Wales green. More pix to come when I start to get things a bit more organized.

Someone has claimed his couch, Buddha cat!

Fan girl scream.....

Wow....Ryan Renolds as Green Lantern. Could possibly be another terrible movie from Marvel(Spider man, Ghost Rider, the last two X-men) but for a topless Renolds I will see it :P.

Where are my sheep?!

Our imagination is an amazing thing, it can also be an entertaining way to keep yourself sane at 3am in the morning when you can't sleep anymore. I know everyone has had their nights where you just suddenly wake up and that's it, your body will not let you go back to bed. You toss and turn, you get up to pee thinking maybe if you empty your bladder you can magically fall asleep afterwards or maybe you are dehydrated, so you drink some water perhaps... all in all you try anything just to distract yourself. It is in the early hours of the day where your mind starts playing tricks on you and the weirdest thoughts come flying into your head. Things get so blurred, you have no idea whether you are still awake or asleep.

Weirdly enough you feel wired, your body tricks you to think...it's ok, you can function on two hours of sleep...yes this is a lie!. You start to crash, slow at first and then you nose dive into exhaustion. You can't type, your head is pounding and your opening line on the phone at work sounds like an alien language.

It is 4:30, you have 30 min to go until the end of the day. These last 30 min feel more like 30 hours. Staring at the computer screen, it takes you 15 min to type the next line of your blog......

This is the start of Random blah blah Tuesdays.....Just some fun on my blog. Post something random

Home owners club, day one and two!

I can now proudly say I'm now part of the homeowners club, as my friend Olgies would say:"Woot Woot!".



First of all I want to thank my supportive family and friends, you stood by while I struggled to find myself. You saw me fall more then once; were patient while I said I was ready to leave and even more patient with me when I decided to give it another chance. You were the first to lend a hand when I decided to take that very scary leap into the unknown and hugged me when I cried and fell apart. You never judged me or gave up on me like others may have, you loved me unconditionally no matter what...I love you all for this.

To those who judged me, did not believe I could better myself, go F@CK yourselves! You lost out on an amazing friendship and it is not my loss...it's yours. I'm thankful I saw through the bullshit.



Home.....

After much anxiety and constantly watching the office door as I anticipated the courier's arrival, I finally had my keys. I did not officially have possession until the 10Th, but I could not resist sneaking a peek at the place. Thankfully no one was there and I was free to explore.

It felt a bit odd, I could not convince myself that this was mine...perhaps I'm still in denial.



Saturday morning my parents came and we started to work. Dad started re tiling the shower( there were two massive cracks in the wall), while mom and I scrubbed away at the grime. I was not at all surprised with how dirty everything was, but I've seen worse. We only did a small dent into what needs to be cleaned that day, but i was happy with the progress.

Sunday, power washed the front of the house(curtains of dead bugs thanks to the flood light) and painted the front door. Also puttied the holes for the painters. We were supposed to have three quotes Sunday, only one of the painters showed. We were pissed, but expected as much.
Just seems a lot to be done in such a short amount of time. Kitchen sink and faucet need to be replaced and the sink in the washroom. New floors installed tomorrow and the furniture is coming Wednesday. Thankfully while I'm here at work, my father is contacting painters. Everything has fallen into place, so I will keep manifesting. I have been very blessed and continue to be thankful.

I'm looking forward to next Saturday night when I can put my feet up, enjoy a nice glass of wine and feel at home officially.

Blessed be

gluten free cooking

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She seems have some interesting recipes

One determined pup

Six days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing else that needs to be said, have an amazing week everyone!

Happy Canada Day...week prior and this week

Today I'm just taking it easy. I did the first coat on my friend's baby room and depending on how quickly the paint dry's I may do another coat.

Last night I finally signed the last of the mortgage papers at the La Caisse, next week I see the Notary. Nine more days, it seems so surreal. I have never really had my own place, something that is all my own. No more landlords, people telling me what I can and cannot do. If i want to leave a god damn plate on the counter for 5 days I can!!!!

The week prior

Weekend was fun. I met with Olga, Christine, Gordon, Paul and Serge. We headed to Lac Leamy park for a full moon ritual. For those who do not know me, I'm eclectic spiritually and open to trying new things. It has been a while since I've hung out with my light worker friends and it felt wonderful to re connect. Olga has moved to Gatineau, so I have a friend another friend on the Quebec side to hang out with, I plan on having a girl's night once I settle in.
Prior to meeting with friends I spent the day with my parents, bought some tile for the shower and some new vinyl floors for the kitchen an entrance(I'm figuring this will not be my"forever home" so I won't spend to much to much on my first home).
I'm deviating again, back to Saturday night. I had a good time, a bit angry with with one situation. I'm an animal rights advocate, I believe all living creatures should be protected and humans should respect their place on this planet. It is due to our greed that devastating enviromental diasters occur, yet do we even learn from these tragedies?

I believe parents should teach their children to be kind to animals and other living things, sadly this is not always the case.

I had to "parent" someone elses' child, yelling at the kid who was going to smack a baby raccoon with a stick. Of course the parents just sat there, on their asses doing nothing as their hyperactive children threw sticks at the baby raccoons, not even acknowledging that this could be dangerous for their child and for the animal....arghhhh.

After being eaten alive by mosquitoes, we went to La Station for diner....disgusting. I wasn't hungry to begin with so I decided on a salad..... I didn't anticipate a bug in my diner. I got charged of course, you live and you learn.

Sunday was rainy and dull. Nothing much more to say.

This week
Work is getting better....well not the amount of work, but I can tolerate the position a bit more.

Aside from that...I'm getting bored typing this and I'm sure this post is painfully drudging on, so I'm done.

Goodbye Ottawa

In sixteen days I will no longer be a resident of Ontario, it feels very strange to be honest. It has been about 10 and a half years since I moved to the Ottawa valley from Calgary Alberta. I have some fond memories of living here, though at times I wished I never set foot in this city.

I was 19 when I moved. Everything was scary, new and overwhelming. I had never lived on my own before, my parents lived an hour away and I knew no one in this city.



I rented a room in New Edenborough, with this crazy woman, her son and two other students. The kitchen area was beyond tiny, bathroom equally claustrophobic and my room was a freezer. I could not be on the phone past 10 or looney toons would come down stairs and yell at me , nor could I have anyone over. Let me say my stay there did not last long...I was out three months later.

I have had my fair share of crazy roommates and thieving landlords.All in all, it has been a learning experience.
I've also had my first relationship here, first job, first car, first heart break, I can go on and on.

I guess moving back to Quebec is not such a big deal since I was born in the province, but I'm not looking forward to having to switch over everything(licence, health card). Also the pain of having to try to find a doctor, I'm hoping my doctor in Ontario will agree to keep seeing me.

Pros: A three story condo for the price of a shit hole apartment in Ottawa, more selection of food in the supermarket, cheaper car insurance, cheaper child care(when I do have a child)
Cons: Lack of physicians, poor health care system, taxes, higher gas prices, lingering separatists.

Anyways, Happy St Jean Baptiste Day!

Summer Solstice

What is summer without a lovely sun burn, I look like a robin. Pasty white with a bright red chest...I do not look like an idiot.....I swear
I still wonder how my ancestors faired since the 1600's in this environment. We burn, we are a buffet for the horse flies and mosquitoes, we hate the cold....I can go on and on. Those few drops of native blood must be our saving grace.....I'm pretty good with finding my way out of the woods...maybe I should go on Mantracker(it's a show... look it up)

Weekend was great, spent quite a bit of time outdoors(obviously) and kept myself busy. I find I need to keep my mind occupied lately just to prevent the stress and sadness from taking over. It can be over whelming when so many things have changed in such a short time and I'm only human. Though I'm good at hiding my feelings, I do break down sometimes when I'm alone.

Saturday was Dragon boats. A friend's hubby was participating so we decided to go and cheer him on. It looked like alot of fun, something I wouldn't mind trying. We spent the day watching the races, walking about, avoiding the downpour and taking in the UV.
Exhausted and burnt, I decided to go on a trip to St Eustache. Trinity was insanely happy; squealing like a pig, mauling me with kisses and trying to climb all over me.

Sunday; spent more money. There was a huge sale on baby stuff at Sears so I decided to buy a car seat/stroller for my best friend......I'm a big giver :P.
I also got more stuff for the house; a lamp, bed set and bathroom stuff.
I also took my mom out for her birthday...again another big hole in my wallet.

Plans for this week.

• Lots of time at the gym
• Painting the nursery and starting the mural(no longer the polar bear theme, now a farm theme instead...I will post pictures when it's done)
• Final walk through for the house, find car and house insurance
• Finally go to the Spa

Hi my name is Akward, what's yours?

I'm going to blame my parents for not socializing me properly as a child ....yep I'm using my folks as my cop-out.





As a child my shyness was at times paralyzing. I often kept to myself, I did not have many friends throughout elementary and much of high school. Children as always were mean, my parents sheltered me as much as they could, which in the end made things worse.





I ran away from my troubles, I would walk home every day at lunch just to avoid having to eat by myself. When my best friend moved away in grade seven I felt completely isolated again. My parents used the referendum(though they wanted to leave Dorval for years and regretted ever moving there) as an excuse to leave Quebec and start fresh.





Calgary was my new start. A high school were no one knew me, perhaps a friendlier more open community to be welcomed into. Though still shy, I forced myself be more social, to try new things and just be thankful for whatever came my way. I still have very fond memories of the friends I made in Calgary. I like to call our group, the outcasts. We were the nerds, the artists, the fasionistas, the skaters, the goths etc. We did not discriminate against anyone.

This year marks the ten year reunion for 2000 grads. I could not attend, but I do want to some day go back to Calgary and reconnect with old friends.

Though still somewhat socially awkward, I know now that if people cannot appreciate me with all my flaws, habits, annoying traits etc, then they are not worth my time. I'll stick with my group of outcasts, those that strive to be themselves no matter what.

Another summer of blah.....

I'm tired of living out a suitcase, I want some kind of life again.I'm so fed up with everything right now I'm stating to slowly loose my mind. I work, watch TV and go to bed. I go out sometimes, but I long to go new places, meet new people and just have some fun before the summer is gone.

Being single at this age sucks, I feel like the third wheel all the time.

I'm not at all interested in meeting new men right now. Though I have made the pathetic attempt to go on dating sites, I must come across as some stuck up bitch because I never respond to emails. I'm far to self conscious to even attempt to go on any dates...there is still much work to be done on me before I can even take that step.

I blew off the chance to hang out with some friends this weekend, instead I decided to drive to my Mom's to check on the dog. Kind of pathetic right? I think so lol.
I haven't seen her in two weeks....my mom is doing her best to keep the pup entertained. I will be ecstatic once the move is over, painting is done, Reno's done, furniture is in and I can have a life again.
Going to have a small house warming party in August, a new house always needs to be broken in and some potential gifts don't hurt either.

Pain in my back and a whole in my wallet

I'm sitting here is pain, high on meds with a therma patch on my back. I'm pissed that I can't enjoy the rest of my weekend, but what can I do. I pulled something in my back yesterday, I took some Tylenol and blew it off. When I woke up this morning the pain was worse, I popped some more Tylenol and went out. By lunch time I couldn't move, I couldn't bend forward or get up.....I wanted to go to the hospital.

My folks went to the pharmacy to get me a back brace, thermapatch, Tylenol back pain and rubbing lotion. I'm 29, you would think I was 50 the amount of stuff they got me, oh well I love them :)

Drove around Aylmer looking for some flooring centres, couldn't find anything. Again got lost, roads were closed again and so gave up for this weekend.

Instead I went and spent over 2000 on furniture at Leons. I got a new mattress, bed set, couch and love seat, coffee tables and a futon.

Still quite a lot to do, less then a month until I move :)

Wowza, it makes individual cups of coffee

There is this futuristic coffee machine at work with neon blue lights, it is spiffy. You put in little packets of whatever coffee flavour you can imagine and it brews you a cup. Now if only they had one for a cafe latte and I would be set...or do they already have one? hmmm.

I'm in week two of work.....I'm surviving so far. I hate changes, I hate having to start all over again and at times I have anxiety attacks over it.
Training was A LOT of information to process about the association, different memberships, different types of malpractice insurance, questions from international students etc. I'm still learning and apparently with renewal time coming up everything will change again.....I'm in for a shit show :S.
People here are super nice, very helpful and patient. I do miss HC though, I miss my colleagues and despite the insanity of the program, I didn't mind so much what I was doing.

I'm going out Wednesday with some friends from HC and some past colleagues who have moved onto other positions. It should be fun to catch up.

Thursday meeting a friend in Aylmer, Friday movie night, Saturday government test, Sunday is Dad's birthday. I should be purchasing the last few pieces of furniture I need this weekend as well.

I know I said I would not get into specifics on this blog, but in reality I'm just 1 out of 6,800,000,000. I'm sure there is someone far more interesting then me to read about.

Crowded

Wow I miss my own space. Don't get me wrong I really appreciate having a place to stay until my house is ready...but I miss being able to do what I want, when I want.
The last week has been ...long. Training at the new job, finishing school(got 89% in biology), barely sleeping( I don't sleep well in other people's homes), another interview.

Eating has been bad. I haven't gotten groceries, cooking in a strange kitchen...eh. Trying to make meals everyone else likes is a pain in the ass. I haven't gotten to the gym yet in over a week. I'm hoping next week will be a little less stupid.

Trin, Gwen and Nova are all in St Eustache. It was hilarious watching my dog nearly pee herself when I came....she acted like she hadn't seen me in a year...super cute.

I got vacuum today and some new pillows. I'm looking to get a new bed since I left my old one with Brad. Man I have alot of crap to buy.

Uhuh

Not much to say...moved out. That is all I have time to say.

Day 6, or should this be Day 1 again?

What can I say aside from that things are insane , I don't have time to think. I'm in the process of packing, finishing up school, training, finding painters, moving to a friends etc. I have had no time for exercise or eating well and with this humidity there are times I don't even want to eat.

I started Isagenix again this morning. With living out of boxes this diet is an easy , quick way to try and eat healthy.
I hope to get a walk in tonight, no time for the gym until next week ...I think, I may be in Toronto.

The new job wants me to go to Toronto for a few days for training, pretty cool.

Ok , have to get to work.

Day 5

Just exhausted. Sleep was horrible the last two days. Perhaps 8 hours for two days...bad.
Getting back to it tomorrow. New job starts and school will be over after Wednesday night. BIG final to study for. Will go for a walk tonight when the heat disperses a bit.

Day 4

Exercise: None aside from walking around alot
Eats: Good, alot of protein
Good stuff: Bought fridge, stove, washer and dryer

In St . Eustache right now. Day was good. Bought a Maytag washer and dryer. Whirlpool fridge and stove. Planning house warming in July. Still looking for couch, bed set, mattress and so on. Also bought new knife set.

Still bleeding like crazy, no exercise today. Got to spend some time with miss bitchy bitch and Buddha belly.

See ya mother fuckers

Day 3

Exercise: Combat done, treadmill tonight and weights.

Got my f-ing period. Which means a day of cramping, bloating and bitchyness. I have to wait for the motrin to kick in before I head to my folks.

Combat was hard, I was running out of energy fast...I think I will take a break for combat for the next few days.

Not going to weigh myself until after this week is done

Day 2

Exercise: Half way done
Eats:Great so far, glass of wine as a treat
Good stuff: Got a request for another interview. I do have a new job, but it doesn't hurt to look at the other options.

Combat class was great. Arms hurt and so do my abs. Walk this afternoon with the pup and maybe a bike ride. Packing and studying. No big plans for the long weekend.

Dead tired after the gym and the walk. Just going to be a lazy night.

Combat tomorrow at 10 am.
I think is absolutely sucks that Quebec has no Goodlife gyms.

Day 1

Exercise:done
Eats:not so good :S
Good things:Car is clean, packed 10 boxes so far

Walk for 30 mins with the dog.
Elliptical 500 cals burned
weights upper body
treadmill 150 cals burned
bike 50 cal.
Would of done more but the gym was closing.
Hamstring is still pulled, no lower body weights

Tomorrow combat in the morning and gym in the afternoon.

The start

This blog is merely to help monitor my weight loss. No personal information shared online. If you want to know what is going on in my life then ask.

Day one begins tomorrow.

Night.