Oracle Friday's

So I've felt inspired to start my weekly card readings. I used to do celtic animal readings and angel card readings for friends on facebook.
So each Friday I will pull a card for the day, see what the message is.

Today's card: Crane (reversed)

Now reversed cards are not always negative, they do often have a slightly reversed meaning of what the card means upright, but each teaching of the card is aimed at assisting.

Cranes are the keeper of secrets, a hidden knowledge and are patrons of the written word. Crane reversed suggests that you should be watchful with who you confide in.Be careful not to betray any trust and use your intuition when sharing your knowledge. Also crane suggests that you do not make assumptions if you are not entirely sure in the information you are receiving, go to the source directly and keep an open mind.

A Day of pictures

One of my favorite things is to take my camera and just explore the area around me. I love finding special places.

Back to posting, because I don't care

Why waste time, emotion and energy anymore on the mundane. Why should I care about who is looking, who is not looking or what people think... It seems to pointless.



Life has taught me that time will consume your better days if you obsess about things that are just completely out of your control. I will proudly speak my mind, I have left to many things un said and I'm sick of regrets.

I want to let go of fear and just live. Be spontaneous from time to time, meet new people...oh god do I ever need to meet new people.
I'm so sick of the fair weather friends, those who bail on you when times get tough. Those who take advantage of your kindness, you can smell the reek of their fake-ness from a mile away.

I love friendships that are care free and low maintenance. If i want to hang out and watch a movie there is no pageantry that you have to put on. You can chat on the phone about completely random things, or not even talk for months and still have an effortless conversation.
I'm thankful to have one or two friends like this, but I wish there were more.

This seems to be a recurring theme in my life, make them and loose them. But this is what life is about, lessons learned and willingness to kepe trying.

Where I would rather be right now

I would turn back time, two years ago. I was healthy, looking good and radiant. Minus the relationship at the time, things were ok. Looking through old pictures brings back memories, also a yearning to go back here:

St. Thomas, in the U.S. Virgin Islands. Paradise......One of the best vacations of my life.I'm dying to go back. It is a goal to work towards

3 months, time flies

It was nearly been three months since I made three of the biggest, hardest and scariest decisions of my life. Now that things have settled a bit, reality is slowly creeping up on me...that alot has changed and perhaps I didn't really have the time to grieve some situations.



I internalize everything, I bottle up all my emotions inside and I stress. Some days I cracked, like my crying sessions on the way to work and once at work(that was embarrassing) and bursting into tears when I would hear a certain song.



I didn't have time to deal with what was going on, I was starting a new job (leaving one I loved, but I saw no future with at the time), buying a house(confusing, stressful and expensive...I thank the heavens that I had my parents to guide me) and moving out of a abusive and negative situation. I lived in a fog, I accepted unhappiness as my reality and the possibility of having anything better was lost to me.
Now that I have cut loose those ties that were holding me down, I still have to sometimes fight away feelings of not being worth while. I have to accept compliments, without questioning if there is any underlying motive. I have to see that like everyone I'm flawed and not to be discouraged, that healing takes time. To have patience for those who I feel have pulled away from me, let whatever is meant to happen in the hands of the universe.

Be open to whatever may come and be happy with all that I have been blessed with so far. I'm truly lucky and things will fall into place.

I used to stress about not being at the same place as my friends; I wasn't married, I wasn't pregnant nor did I have kids. I still don't have any of these things, but these elements do not define my self worth and I have to start realizing that the universe has a plan for me.
I do not need a man in my life to be a mother, I told myself that if I do not find the right guy I would do this regardless. There are amazing single mothers out there, many who do so by choice. I would be open and honest with my child, I would make sure there would be positive male influences in their lives.
Of course this would be hard, not only financially but also on me as an individual. But if you want something badly, if you work at it...things will work themselves out. Going to try and convince my mom to move in and be my permanent baby sitter lol.

Right now it is time to work on the current. Health, my home, friends, spirituality and work.

Blessed be

New blog

So I've started a new blog just for art work, check it out :)

http://melissasjart.blogspot.com/

A big thank you

I'm very thankful for the wonderful gathering; great food, gifts(spoiled) and fun times tonight.
Mandy, Liz, Monica, Jason, Bobby, Kelly and Taegh came for my house warming tonight. Mountains of food: home made cupcakes, veggies and dip, guacamole, quesadias etc. I'm stuffed and ready for bed now....Plus I just can't drink as much as I used to. Three or so glasses of wine and I'm done. I can't do the hangovers anymore.
Mandy and Liz got me some nice wine glasses and new board game. Kelly and Bobby got me a agate and quartz light catcher, Monica and Jason(TV stand, was using a microwave stand for the longest time.
Broke out the champagne and played some Dirty Minds(board game), had a blast. I can't think any more...it has been a long day.

Very Happy :)

Clean eating-Cleanse day

I decided to use all the fresh produce my mother brought me(the woman brings enough food to feed 20) and made a fresh bean salad.

Took a can of mixed beans(rinsed)

Fresh green beans and corn(steamed)

green onions(2 stalks)

one green pepper and one red pepper

Half a lime, salt( a tiny bit), pepper and garlic powder

Organic balsamic and olive oil.

This will be dinner, with some grilled chicken.

I haven't lost any weight yet, but I know things are moving in the right direction. Need to do some organizing today, then a walk and bike ride later on in the day.